Yesterday we went to our cousin’s daughter full moon party, and looking at the baby whose are so fragile, so young, so little, my memory came back to my mind and while getting my kids ready to bed yesterday, I knew they are my precious baby and they are the strength for me to go through the ups and down in my life.

After giving birth to Chloe, 2 years back, I realised that there are no other thing that could replace my family in my life. Yes, to someone money is important and I do realised that but you will feel really happy when your kids gave your a kiss when you come back from home or request for a hug hug like my girls did, it just look like all the unhappy thing that happened that day dissappeared and you feel happy by just looking at their smile while standing waiting for you to come home. This is what happened to me after my decision to let go my career life to a more stable working environment, less pressure work responsibility. I let go quite a number of opportunity for the past 2 years which include overseas job, it is still worth it to see the kids and hubby to be at my side during the happy and sad cycle of my life.

I feel grateful to have a such wonderful man in my life and to lead my life to the end. I knew throughout this 5 years of our marriage, he tried to provide the best for me and our kids and what I can said, I really grateful to have him as my husband and daddy to my kids. I never though he can do something that I never though he will when we are still
@ ” pak tou” relationship. He is drove me to the market every weekend, do the groceries shopping @ carrefour alone when I too tired to go out, he took the kids to playground just to  let me have some quiet “me” time @ home, he is the ones who woke up everynite to make the milk for the kids and so much more that I unable to write down here.  He never raised his voice with me or he just took the blame when the kids are sick. No denial nor arguments from him. He just be a wonderful husband to me although we do have our up and down in our life. …

I feel grateful that the decision that I made previously is correct and I have no regret to let go the opportunity that I was offered….

18th July 2009 is the day where my twin sister officially married to her husband @ Thean Hou Temple. We had attended the ceremony together with their families…

Dearest Chloe,

This letter is mommy’s 2nd letter to you and just like jie jie, mommy will wrote a letter to you on your special day and to wish you a very happy birthday on this special day…

Let see what had happened during these past one year, You have been admitted twice during this year and was on nebiliser 4 times. You are in and out of sickness these year and mommy not sure what actually had trigger all this. Is this due to the food that you take? the air ? mommy really not sure and what mommy can do is not to exposed to the coldness and polluted air which mean staying more at home now. Hopefully you can recover very fast…

Despite the sickness that happened, you indeed mommy lil pooh pooh. You have no refused at all when it come to food. You take whatever we gave you. The last one year, you grown from a lil “boy boy” look to a lil pretty girl and mommy see how much you actually grown this past one year.

You loves your jie jie very much. You will request for your jie jie share whenever we buy thing for you and loves to be the ones to hand over the thing to you jie jie. Although both of you loves each other very much, there are times where you are naughty girl. There are numerous time when you bite There are times where mommy need to punish of you for the naughty thing that you had done. Each time mommy punished you, mommy feel very heart sick to see you cried but mommy really need to do that you so that you could remember that there are thing you are not allowed to do…

On this very special day, mommy want to wish you a very Happy Birthday to you my lil pooh pooh…

Mommy and Daddy…

Out of the blue, suddenly daddy asked me to make reservation when I informed that Renaissance Hotel is offerring 50% to their buffet dinner. This is the first time that we had our buffet dinner there. Although their variety was not as much as Le Meridien Hotel, the food are okay and worth the value of money that we paid. The girls as normal, are very happy to have their choice of food. As we bring along our maid, we managed to have a peaceful dinner and enjoyable night there for both myself and hubby.

Some of you may have knew that Chloe was attacked again with Weezy Bronchitis and was under nebuliser for 3 days straight. although she was not hospitalised( thank goodness) she need to be in the hospital for her nebuliser twice a day meaning in the morning and night. We need to “report” into the A&E dept every morning and night for 3 days. Yesterday was the last day and Chloe was recovering now with straight diet..

I’m not sure how she get it but people was saying because of  what I gave her eat. Sometimes it is quite pity to see her restricted from food and being a lil pooh bear, she loves food very much. Sometimes I have this philosophy that if we gave them taste the food that they like, when they saw it the next time, they will listen to you when you said they can’t eat it. This is what I trying to do but the reverse side happened.

Being a mother, seeing her daughter being caughing so badly, is not a scene that a mother would like to see. I felt so “painful” when my lil pooh was crying and telling me she got ” tummy ache” which the actual fact – the pain came from the way she was coughing so badly. I was crying that nite when I see chloe so tired after coughing so long and yet I felt so helpless… unable to help my lil girl at all instead of soothing her, stroking her and trying to make feel as comfortable as I can so that she can sleep.

Thank goodness, she recovering now and her appetite is back!

Get well soon my lil pooh pooh!!!!!