and yet we have not plan anything for her yet. We thought of celebrating her birthday @ genting in view that we unable to bring the kids to Langkawi due to the recent H1N1 attacked. Despite all this, we are grateful that we make that decision although we are losing some of our monetary that we have paid for this trip.. like what hubby said, there are always other time for us to bring the kids for holiday. Just cross finger nothing would happen for our plan Hong Kong trip next year…

Back to Chloe, another month to her 2nd birthday. She grown so much during the past few weeks and she as cheeky as ever, knew how to win our heart with her words and so on. Her Vocal improved so much and now she are able to conversed with us although some of the words we are unable to capture and digest.

As for her food instake, as usual, we do not have problem with her food as she loves food. however, we noticed that she have reversed favourtism as compared to her Jie Jie. If Jie Jie dislikes certain type of food ( which she normally is), Chloe loves that food and vice versa. Not sure why. However this post some difficulties for both myself and hubby when we do our shopping. We have to ensure that both the kid’s favourite food are in our basket before we check out or else, both of them will start their war.

One thing that I noticed about chloe was, she loves to disturb her jie jie no matter what she doing at that time. She loves to poke her jie jie and this will lead to Jie Jie decided to fight back and normally ended up both of them crying. Jie Jie on the other hand never want to give in to mei mei request end up with pulling hair, pitching each other etc. Having 2 kids with 2 years old gap are not easy especially if both of them are the same sex. but they do have the good side of it.  you can see Jie Jie protect her mei mei very much and mei mei never forget to asked for Jie Jie share when we gave her something and she want to be the person to past the thing to her jie jie.

It is not easy and yet not so difficult to have 2 kids at home. They are the sunshine to the house and without them, the house are so quite. They provide us with laughter with their naughtiness, provide smile with their attidute and worriness to us as parent to sees them grown to lead their life on their own.

well I have when I was small. My parent brought one for us to played with my sis. now, when I saw this, I was so happy .. to share this toy with my girl. Previously, when we are small kids, we usually played “batu seremban”, “guli with the boys” and ” skipping ” with our friend and now, in 21st century, it seems like all this is dissappearing. Kids are now exposed to PSP, play station, wii and so on. So sometimes when I saw some toys that I played before during my childhood time, I am happy and not reluctant to buy for my kids. the memory of my childhood came back to me…

yup, we have no choice to cancel our upcoming trip to Langkawi due to recent H1N1 attacked in Malaysia. I would not want my kids to exposed to this kind of virus. I knew that I have lost RM400 and 2 nite stayed at berjaya langkawi resort due to this cancellation.

I have asked quite a number of people regarding these trip as frankly speaking I was quite reluctant to cancel this trip at the first place as I have been waiting for this trip to come true since I booked my ticket last year and this is the first trip that we went together as  a family and i really look forward toward it. However, the current situation took over my decision. I rather lose my money instead of exposing my kids to the unnecessary condition which may affect their health.

To the person that I have asked for opinion, I really thanked you for your opinion and I appreciate it very much….

We have a birthday party celebrated in Sban @ my BIL’s house last sunday. It is just a smale scale of birthday party for Zoey since every year we would just have a dinner with relative. We did not called to informed about this function as both myself and hubby want to have this party more for our lil girl and my mil.

 I ordered cupcakes instead of Birthday cake this year but the taste are not as what I have expected. The theme of the cake are spongebob.I still prefer the normal cake especially those from secret recipe. Will buy one for Chloe birthday.

 Zoeywith A-Mah

 Birthday cake from Po Po

 Birthday present for Zoey and Chloe ( yup – a early birthday present for Chloe as she will cried if we did not buy the present for her )

Zoey with her present from daddy and mommy. She has been requesting us to buy this toy for her for months and I told her we will buy this toy for her as her birthday present and she remembered this and requesting us to fullfilled our promise. So lesson learn, not to promise a child as they will remember it.

Dear Zoey,

Today is your 4th birthday and mommy want to wish you Happy birthday my lil precious girl.

Throughout this 4th year you have from a toddler to a pretty lil girl. You are always mommy baby girl although you always claimed that you’re lil girl. I know this year is a challenging year for you… you need to goes to school. Mommy knew that you’re not happy. but Mommy need to do so because mommy knew it is the best for you…. to see you can learn new thing in school, to see you becoame independent and so on. While you’re are crying, mommy feel the pain too to see you cried. but believe this, what mommy do now, it is for  your own good later in your life.

Although, mommy not sure what the future will be, but mommy trying our best to take care of you and to provide you with the best for you in education, your childhood and so on. Mommy and Daddy  are alway be there for you my lil girl….

We love you so much and We are happy to see you happy in anyway that you liked.

Mommy remembered every step that you took since your birth and now you are 4th years old now and mommy so grateful that you managed to overcome your fear and grew up like every other kids. You are mommy and daddy baby girl forever no matter how old are you…

We loves you so much….

Daddy and mommy

not as what I thought it should.

Day 1 : 15/6

As expected, Zoey was excited when I said that she going to school today. I told not to feel scare, must tell teacher if friend push her, must tell teacher when want to shee- shee as soon on. Not sure how many time already I told her that.

I was not not leave as my mom told me not too in case Zoey do not want to go school. I went to office and my mom as normal kept me updated with this. Mom told me that in fact Zoey said Bye Bye to her when she want to go back home. Quite relieved.,,

Later, after school, called my mom. Mom told me that Zoey was crying when she pick her up. Later after some checking, she said it could be she shee shee on her panties and she was scared. Could be a reason why she cried in school. I spoke to Zoey on the phone. She told me this ” Mommy, I not happy” ..

Day 2 : 16/6

Zoey ws okay when I prepared to go office on that day. In fact, she promised me that she goes to school. Later, mom told me she was kept saying ” I’m not happy. I dont want to go school” many times before she went to go school. Although she kept saying this, she followed my mom instruction and prepared her to go to school.

Called her teacher, She said Zoey was crying or rather sobbing when my mom sent her to school that morning. She said Zoey stopped crying after a while and will do her thing but when she was alone ( could be she homesick) she start to sob again.

In the afternoon, when my mom pick her up, she was playing with her friend. One of her friend told my mom this ;’ this morning , she cried” – so cute, this lil boy. Later, I asked her what she do in school, she said she write ABC and sing song. I asked again what song does she learn in school? She said ” chinese song” and she answered “I dont know how to sing”

I also asked her why she cried in school this mornimg – she said ” I don’t know how to sing chinese song”

Day3 – 17/6

She keep saying that she not happy in school. I told her she must goes to school so that she can learn ABC and sing song, make friend like daddy and mommy and so on…

Same as day 2. “Mommy, I’m not happy ” was a sentence that I heard the most for the past 3 days.

On the way back home : “mommy tomorrow no school” then I asked “Why” she replied ” Tomorrow is holiday”. I explained to her that holiday is on sat and sunday and tomorrow is thursday. so she need to go to school and same as mommy need to go to work…

Day 4 – 18/6

Even worst this morning, Zoey does not even walked to school. She was carried by my father and her school bag, bottle water and Shoe was carried by my mommy to school. She keep on yelling” I dont want to go school” and ” I’m not happy”

Later when I called the school, the teacher told me that she okay after she saw her grandparent walked away. She also do her school work in school willingly.

My mom told me this could be phase where she need to overcome and hopefully she can get herself suit into the school environment. I am quite worry to see her like that. Being a mom is not easy. No matter how worry I am I need to do this as I know what I’m doing now is good for her… Let see what happen next week..

So what did Chloe do why jie jie in school? She does not want to take her morning nap and keep on saying :” go school” when she sees jie jie preparing to go to school. She cried when my mom sent jie jie to school. But after that, she take a long morning nap without disturbance from her jie jie….

Yes,Zoey is going to school tomorrow. We had just registered her to her kinder on friday after much thinking and also pestering from Zoey herself

at first we thought of starting her on 1st july since we are going for our langkawi trip end of this month but after some discussion with hubby, it is a new term for the school after the mid year holiday, therefore we decided to let her go to school after the holiday. She was so excited when she hear the new. in fact I took her to her school last friday to registered and she was so happy to know that she going to school.

fever and sore throat today…

for the past few week, I do not have enough rest with what had happened to my MIL and the death of my BIL. While I writing this post, I actually at home resting. I just bad luck will go away from our family soon and we may lead a life as it is. No more rushing here and there, No worry but happiness in our life…

when I heard the news last tuesday, i was in the state of shock. I can never accept that my big BIL ( husband of hubby’s deceased sister) passed away. he is survived with 2 boys and a girl. It is very pity to see the children without parent anymore in this world. His eldest boy was only form 4 and the second’s form 2 and his girl only standard 5. They may knew that they have lost their parent at the very young age but would they know that there are very much challenges ahead of them?

Back to my late BIL, leading a life without a wife, taking over the responsibility being a father as well as a mother to his children is something that i salute him and respect him. Frankly speaking, I really respect him on this. It is not easy to bringing up the children and yet he need to do both role, really get my respect.

He lead a very simple life and educated his children much alone after my SIL passed away six year ago. When my SIL was sick that time, he take care of his wife day and nite and also bringing up his children single handedly was something that not everyone can do. He paid for the medical bill, expenses of the household, eductaion and so on alone and on top of this, not even any complaint from him. He lead his life as it is and me, at that was not even married to hubby was already feel respect for him on his determination to be responsible as a husband to his wife, and as a father to his children.

Even after six year, he remain with the family of his wife, be there when ever there is a function, sickness in the family. He is always there for the family.

With his passing, there are loss to the family and the question on the future of the children copped up. We, being the closer relative are hoping very much if what we have plan for the children can come true.

May GOD bless him and REST in PEACE….